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Well, this is where I will be writing my musings.

I'm Alexis. I guess I should say a bit about myself, I'm a youngish, reluctant model living in London with a penchant for fantasy and living in my own head and laying in bed when it's cold listening to Kate Bush.

Im the eternal singleton. I'm always the good friend, never more. I'm alright with it now, or so I say to people, but really, I do have grumblings about it.

Why did I join livejournal? I used to have one a long time ago..but I lapsed with it, and I'm not going to use it again because that stage is best left in the past.

What do I look like? I'm taller than you imagine, blonder than you would think, but my eyes are muddy and never receive compliments. Oh yes, and I'm not big boned, I'm just dumpy. I have issues with food and and myself, we don't have the best of relationships.

I don't want to sound all doom and gloom and angsty, like some teenaged girl who's read too many posey so called intellectual books and thinks its cool to be depressed because it means no one understand her and her genious mind.

So here is some stuff;
I love doughnuts and pastry. Krispy Kremes get me everytime. Why buy a box of 6 for £6 when you can get a box of 12 for £7???
I love to dance and throw myself around a dancefloor pulling shapes.
I like it hard and rough with a guy who could hurt me a bit. But I like it more when they hold me afterwards and kiss the back of my neck and tell me they love me.
I never went out trying to be a model, it just happened by accident. I don't particularly enjoy it and I certainly dont want to be a model for the rest of my life. It just allows me to do some kinda cool things and hell, it beats working on a checkout or stacking shelves in Asda.
I wish life were more like the final fantasy games..preferably either VII or X.
I adore fantasy "stuff".
I fall for boys very very easy.

I have a complexed family. More will come about that in my blogs I am sure, but so as not to take you by suprise, I'll give you a rough outline now;
I moved out of the family house and now live in a flat with my mother. This suits us both as she's hardly ever here as she travels with work a lot so she gets someone to look after everything while she's gone, and I get a free place to live.
My biological Father walked out on us 3months after I was born, and since then has had a string of failed relationships, through out all of them though he has tried to force it down my throat that "they are your new family." Oh yes, and I have an older brother from his first marriage that I've never met and a younger brother who I haven't seen for three years.
My stepfather who I lived with for many years recently had a nervous breakdown and went insane. I'm not talking about "oMg LyKe My DaDs LyKe SoOOo MaDD" he really is. Medication and all.
My grandmother is a hilarious alchoholic, but the good sort. She's naturally quite up-tight, and when she drinks she mellows out and is a lot of fun.
My other grandmother refuses to be called grandmother, when I was young she instructed me never to call her nan or grandma because it made her feel old, having a grandchild and a 48 year old daughter is hard when your trying to pass for just 60. She's a plastic surgery obsessive. As are quite a few in my family. None to her extent though.
My mother? Er, we have a complex relationship. Im not sure what to say, so I wont.

I love Kate Bush. Anything that is remotely Kate Bush related, I will love and try to own.

I also tend to over-hype myself and see things as far worse or far better than they really are. Don't take me with a pinch of salt, take me with a sackload and a good dose of amylnitrate.

I'll possibly add more to this at a later date.